**Nightmares**

OK, so I thought that I would outgrow the nightmare stage in life but apparently, there is
no age limit.  The sad thing is that this time, I know exactly what is causing them…..poor
eating choices.  I began to notice this once I had been eating really well for a period of
time and losing weight – then I started to get lazy and fell back into poor eating habits.  It
was then, that I noticed the weird, crazy dreams – some border on nightmares and others
are just too crazy to even comprehend!  (Such as last night when a random lion was
trying to get my dogs so my aunt and uncle were hiding the dogs in a hotel room….see
what I mean?)

I guess the point of this is that I know eating poorly will give me nightmares and no
quality sleep.  I get up the morning after tossing and turning only to tell myself that I
have to eat better today if I want to get any sleep tonight….but, as the day drags on, I
tend to forget about the lack of sleep from the night before and continue to make poor
choices.  Thus, the never-ending cycle continues.

So, starting on June 1st (yes tomorrow), I’m going to CHOOSE to make healthy
choices each and every day.  I’m not naive enough to think that this will be an easy
task, especially for a junk food addict such as myself … but with good intentions comes
some sort of reward/progress.  It’s the first step (again) towards my long-term goals – which I’m
definitely going to accomplish this time around.  Feel free to hold me accountable – it
will only help me stay on track!

“Yesterday I dared to struggle. Today I dare to win.” -- Bernadette Devlin
…..and so the battle begins….

Really?.....Age 32 already??

So today's my birthday.....

I'm not one of those people who hate their birthday or cry when it comes.  I enjoy it for what it is and go on but today, for some crazy reason, I started to reflect on things.  Honestly, there were so many things I thought I would have at this point in my life or would have accomplished by now.  I guess I can only point the finger at myself though because I'm usually the one that derails the train. 

So, after spending the day with my wonderful mother and doing lots of girl talk that we don't get to do often enough, I sat down to ponder and create a new list of things to accomplish - possibly even more realistic ones.  There are a few that have no timeline (healthy living, maintaining friendships, travel, etc) and there are some that I plan to accomplish in the next few months to a year (lose weight and get in better shape, build up a bigger savings, meet Mr. Wonderful, etc.).  The point is.....I still feel like I have plenty of time to accomplish them.  No pressure, right?

This blog has been on my mind alot in the last few days.  Writing it kind of feels like bearing my soul which is the equivalent of walking around naked in my mind.  Trust me, that's not the prettiest of pictures........  But, I decided to do this for a reason....to chronicle daily things in my life and possibly share some amusement, to share in my journey of weight loss and a healthier lifestyle,  and also to describe my struggles and triumphs in all areas of my life. 

I'm thinking that after these first few posts, I won't be doing as many generic topics and will pick a specific thing that was going through my mind that day.  I guess we will have to see where this goes......

"Sometimes you have to forget what you feel and realize what you deserve"
..........some of this started today....

Roll The Credits....wait I'm not ready....

The next "sequel" is starting - although I'm unclear on which chapter I'm on now.....they all tend to run together at times.  I think I'll call this one -- "Finding The Happy Medium in Life."  Sound generic?  Better than -- "Sanity, seriously who needs that anyway?"  HA!  But I digress....

I'm trying something new.  Call me indecisive, adventurous, insane, a glutton for punishment, smart, delusional, confused, etc.....but whatever you call me, it will have to be quick because I'm onto a new challenge. 

This blog is going to truly be a mixture of EVERYTHING!  My life, my annoyances, my humor, my struggles, and my new journey.  I'm attempting to climb a mountain here....seriously!  Welcome to my journey....I hope you can relate or even just laugh.....Enjoy!